I’ve MOVED.

Haha. I’ve moved YET AGAIN.

Call me a sucker for moving so often.
Don’t need to relink.

http://iwantamoment.blogspot.com

OMG! MY BROTHER MADE IT. HE CAN TAKE O LEVEL ART (:
I’m so damn happy for him okay.

He’s getting ice cream tmr!

SFA Prep

OMG. It’s 5 days till my next facilitating experience. It’s gonna be exciting! (12-14 Oct I’ll be away at camp.)

Had Spiritual prep today. It was good. I just felt too burdened and worried about what people will think of me.

Haiyo. I really don’t know what I’ll be or what I’ll do if not for the people at Amplify. They just inspire you to carry on and continue whatever you’re doing in life. Just grit your teeth and continue giving glory to God.

For now. I’ll just focus on upping my spiritual/scriptural imput, and not forgetting exams.

God. I’ll use you as my strength. Love you dude.

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.

Happy Children’s Day

Happy Kiddies’ Day! (:

OMG. I’m so excited. 21 more days to Os

Prelim Results

Maybe I didn’t too well for Prelims. But I know I could have done better. It was all mistakes I shouldn’t have made.
God has a plan for me, that I know.

I’ve learnt that…
All the expectations I had to meet was just crap. No one can tell me what I have to get. No one else can expect something of me, because it’ll just contradict what I have up in my mind. I don’t care anymore if people start to form opinions of me. Opinions like, “Maybe she isn’t as good as I thought she was.”

I’m glad I passed English this time. I’m glad for a lot of things. I’m glad I had that DSA. And I thank God for it.

Yesterday at Amplify Friday. I was just so thankful for the community I have who’s so willing to pray and support me. And you know something? I know they won’t start to change their attitudes towards me.

My mum was okay towards my results. And she said, “It’s not the real thing.”
At that, I heaved a sigh of relief.

Scared. Just Scared.

Everyday, I sit on the bus, and pray that the bus uncle drives safely. I’m scared of dying.

Everyday, I say bye to mommy in the morning as though I’ll never see her again. I’m scared of losing her, I’m scared of her losing me. VERY SCARED. I love her too much.

And yet, I pray that God’s beside me. Because I know it’s His will.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.
Can you just ignore the language right now! I NEED SOMEWHERE TO RANT AND SCREAM! AND MAKE SURE SOMEONE SEES/HEARS IT.

I’m so freaking scared for prelim results. And the school is taking freaking long to give it to us.
Ya think I’ll meet my expectations? I DID STUDY LA.
And now all I dream of at night is 15 points. 17 points. 20 points. GOODNESS. I think I’ll just murder myself right now.

The truth is I’m scared to face the music. I know I’ve done my best. But why am I feeling like that huh? TELL ME WHY.
I’m just talking to myself right now.

Woah. My friends tell me they’ve got 8 points! I’m uber happy for them.
But it just makes me want to kill myself even more.

YOU HAVE COMPLETELY NO IDEA HOW SCARED I AM RIGHT NOW. I can’t even use all this energy to study. I simply can’t. ):

I’m so scared of what tomorrow brings okay. I don’t want to know.
I don’t want to wake up to a new day of surprises which will make me or break me.
I so scared to wake up, not knowing when I’m leaving this earth.
How about all the people I love?? How about all the people I’ve yet to say sorry to??
SUDDENLY I FEEL EVERYTHING’S TOO LATE.

I need someone right now.
I’m just so scared. Insecure maybe? ):
I NEED YOU GOD. Where are you? I’m just grappling around in the darkness. I can’t find the light. I really can’t.

I LOVE BF :)

My weekends never fail to be filled with activities that keeps me entertained.
Well, was supposed to go for yet another BAND concert on Sunday, but Shelly wasn’t performing last minute, so might as well not go.

Ended up going to Holland V with BF (:
I LOVE HIM MAN.
We actually did some productive studying. Considering that when you put both of us together, we can never stop talking!

OHOHOH. By the way, I had tau suan and WHITE carrot cake for dinner!
Two of my favouritest (okok, I know there’s no such word) food items in the world!

We camwhored A BIT. AND I SWEAR ITS JUST A BIT. Like less than ten photos.
AMAZING. I felt in a non-camwhore mood today. This is the start of a new era for Nat eh?

BF was just bored.

Attempt ONE: FAILED.

Attempt TWO: FAILED.

And we got down to the serious studying. I manged to finish three HUGE chapters of MCQ for Chem TYS. Total of 253 MCQs.

Anyway, we were studying at Starbucks, and OMG, there was this bunch of bitchy older-than-us people. Shan’t say too much, but they were saying we SHOULDN’T BE STUDYING IN STARBUCKS because it was not a library. =X
……ADULTS.

It’s 1.30 am now. AND I SHOULD BE SLEEPING. But I had too much coffee from Starbucks. DIE. I can’t sleep.

OKAY.
SS HERE I COME. D: *exasperated look.
I’m awesomely irritated in LOVE with SS.

Brrrrr. It’s a cold cold nite. Since I stay on the 22nd floor and there’s an endless supply of wind!

I said the stupidest thing today!

Amirah: “So, tell me, what do you know about Russia?”

Nat: “ERM. The people there are called Russians?”

Right. =X
Once I relate the incident to you, it’s NOT FUNNY ANYMORE. Tsk.

So this is Amirah. The HOTTEST MALAY CHINESE I’ve seen in my life.

OMG. I think if some GETAI thingy comes for English Oral topic on the 21st,
I’ll curl up into a ball, roll on the floor and start laughing.

One of the previous days topics was “Do you think teenagers are self-centred now a days?”

What I would say.

I think that everyone is self-centred except myself. (PAUSE FOR ABOUT TWO SECONDS, then I’ll continue) That in itself was an example of self-centredness.

Then I would continue on with my answer..
I KNOW IT’S LAME. But I just had to share it.

I’m so bored, I’m trying countless ways to squeeze my brain for more ideas to entertain myself.

And I thank God for my C5. IT DOESN’T SEEM SO UGLY ANYMORE.

It’s times like these when I really miss having my BF around. I miss you.

EEEW. I got an ugly C5.
Then again, it’s CHINESE. So I’m not expecting much.

I can speak it. =D
I can write it. =D
I understand it. =D

Thanks everyone.
And thanks to hansel, who reminded me that I did my best, and no one can take that from me!

And for the record, I’m not going to retake it. Unless my teachers threaten me with a demerit point.

YOU KNOW SOMETHING? I think my bro’s sch has like the most all-rounded education anyone can get.
That wasn’t random. Then again. It depends on the individual. How much do u want to benefit from the system.
No use being a LOUSY ASS in a good school.

AWWWW. Now I’m looking at my brother with green eyes.

Bear with me. Second post of the day because I’ve many things to blog about. Then again, you can skip all of this.

I went for John’s Band concert on Sunday. At Singapore Conference Hall. Philharmonic Youth Winds. It was VERY GOOD. They meet up and practice once a week, and the music they produce is WOW. Then again, most of them are Pros.

They played the Drum Concerto and OMG. It was SUPER DUPER DUPER NICE.
LOVEDIT.

Camwhored A LITTLE, and yeah, went for dinner. Sponsored by Shelly, since she received her $50 bucks!

MOVING ON to today.
National Celebrations was a blast, but I still regret going to school! Because I missed out on sleep.
Let’s throw all this negativity aside and look at the bright side of things shall we!

This year’s National Day theme song “Will You” has left a very deep impression on me. I just feel so proud to be a Singaporean. SO PROUD.
LOOK AT THEM. The people in the music video can sing so well! STANDARDS people. This is what I call good. Well, not that the previous years were not good. I just feel good watching “Will You”.

Ah well. My sentences are not very coherent today. But HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.
I really do appreciate what you’ve done for me. Although the govt does piss me off most of the time.

I think my mum rocks.

She’s always telling me cool stuff.

“Girl ah! Did you know that if you point your middle finger, it’s more relaxing than pointing your pinky. Point your pinky, your whole hand very tensed.”

WHOA.

JUST A RANDOM THOUGHT.

It’s spelt CATECHISM, and not CATHECISM. Or however some people spell it!

I just don’t like that word being misspelled. Maybe because I know the spelling of it.
RAWR.

This is one of those English days.