Been reading a lot about lonliness lately. Ever been in a crowd and yet feel as though you’re terribly lonely?
I like being alone, but I’m never lonely. Gives me the time and space to think about anything and everything I want. Recently, I’ve been very frustrated with people around me. And I’m sorry.
If I’ve caused you to have undesirable consequences in your life, I’m sorry too.

The sense of indifference from others towards me is reaching an all time high. I cannot take this pressure any longer.
Yes, other people’s opinions dont matter. They never did matter. They never will matter. So what am I doing getting stressd over this?
I just cannot stand going into a class full of people who always give me the ‘orh orh’ look, and ‘Nat, just shut up’ look any longer. If I’m bad, if I’m evil, if I’ve done that much wrong. Tell me now wont you.

If you guys hate me so much, I’ll be gone all right.

My heart is aching so bad. Yet I have to put up a false front and act happy to gain your friendship? If this is so, forget it. I will never let myself down. I am SICK and TIRED of putting up a false front. The old Nat is gone. I am no more what I used to be. I am just so sick.

All this Korean dramas have such fairytale storylines. But I will always dream of my own fairytale. With my knight in shining armour coming to me.

If you say you love a person, and it doesn’t hurt. Then you’re not loving enough.
So just stop saying you love me. You don’t. It’s over. It never started.